Why do people look down on me? Just because my life isn’t where it’s suppose to be right now, people think i’m stupid. People think i won’t be successful, that i’ll screw my life over. That i’m going to fuck it all up. Have some hope in me, would you? And why the hell do people look at me and think, that in the near future or when i get older i’ll be some party chick, going out, clubbing, drinking, smoking, doing drugs. The fuck is this? Am i THAT bad? I can see myself doing those things but the question is, do i want to be like that? What every predicts? No, i wanna prove them fucking wrong.
Just because i make jokes about all that crap doesn’t mean i’m the type of person to do those things. I can control myself. Sure, i’ll admit i will drink, i will go clubbing, i will party, but i WILL NOT do smoke nor drugs. To be honest sometimes it does come to my mind, about smoking and doing drugs. But that is when i’m not in my best mood, when i feel like i’m being torn apart. But i promise i will not do that. The drinking, clubbing, partying all that is for the fun of life. To experience something new, but i wouldn’t constantly do those stuff because i know whats good and bad for me. People don’t need to tell me this shit, i know where i’m going.
As for intelligence, i can be smart when i want to be. But why do i lack it? Because i slack off, i procrastinate, i can be lazy, i have no motivation. But when it comes to a time to be serious about education i will be fucking serious. I have high goals that i want to achieve. I’m not gonna screw up my life. I want my life to run smooth and steady. I want to be happy and content.
A new school year is about to begin, and i’m so pumped and ready for it. I will work hard and be better than ever before. My grades will be hella good, at least i hope. No. More. Procrastination! (Lies) LOL i’ll try not to. But i will do well and study like hell. So fuck you all. ;)
People are always doubting these type of relationships? Why, well I don’t know. It varies with each couple, but many of these relationship are doubtful because it lacks trust, commitment, & even patience. You need to trust him/her that they won’t cheat on you. You need to help commit your own time…
When things get complicated, that’s how I know that I really like the guy. From the complications, it will lead me into long nights trying to work things out in my head, to not knowing exactly where things are going. Every guy is just really simple to me right now. It’s…
I’m not the type of person who is entirely serious. I’m pretty fun to be around & I like to joke around once in awhile, but if it’s time to be serious, I’ll be serious. Other than that, don’t take things seriously. Unless I laugh after what I say, don’t take it seriously. I like to be with people that aren’t 100% serious.
Eyes closed. Hands clenched together. I’m shaking. I’m scared. I’m alone. I’m sad. Somethings about to explode. And now i’m crying. What am i suppose to do? I can’t put up with this pain any longer. Tell me how am i suppose to live through this, when i can’t move on. When everything reminds me of you.
It’s so hard trying to forget you. But the thing is i don’t want to. You mean so much to me. I can’t simply erase you from my mind. You’ll always stay there. How can i move on when i keep thinking about you 24/7? How can i move on when i keep looking at pictures of you? How can i move on when i constantly check up on you every minute of the hour? How can i move on when i keep forming this image of your adorable, cute, smile. Your laugh, your smile, your lip, your eyes, your figure. I remember the feel of your soft, squishy cheeks, your hair, your skin. Everything. I remember the feel of your touch. The way you hold me, i felt so warm and secured. I felt happy. How can i move on when i reminisce the past? Maybe i just don’t want to move on.
West Wednesdays are baaack! Here’s my new song called “I Don’t Need You” and it’s the first song off of West Wednesdays Volume 2! If you’re not familiar with “West Wednesday”, it’s when I release a new song every Wednesday. Simple isn’t it? Reblog it, share it, like it or anything to help me out! Thanks everybody!
I hate that I broke up with you. I have my reasons and i believe it’s for the best for you. It hurts…a lot. You don’t know how hard this is. I feel pain everyday, encountering sleepless nights day after day. It kills me inside. Sometimes i bawl my eyes out till i feel like i can’t breathe, till i feel dizzy. Even though i knew i’d put myself to pain…i took a risk. For what’s best for you, for me. Although i really regret this right now…i’ll live through it, i hope. I’m curious how you feel towards me. Is it hatred, sad, mad, very emotional? Or are you a tough guy who doesn’t give a crap? I don’t want you to hate me. Don’t think this was easy for me because it most definitely was not. I’m not some heartless bitch. I still love you and i still care for you. You have made a big impact in my life. I thank you for being with me, for putting up with my shit, for all the memories we’ve had together. I love you. I’m sorry for putting you through this. To be honest i want you back but i’ll leave how things are as it is. Because i don’t deserve another chance, our relationship has been a roller coaster. I fuck things up all the time haha..Anyway It’s better for both of us…isn’t it? To end it? Or am i wrong? I need to stop overthinking shit haha…you know me.
It’s not that easy to forget about someone. Especially someone who you used to be part of your life daily. The late night phone calls, texting all day, etc. There’s so many things that could remind you of that person and you could see memories you guys shared. Deleting someone from your memory is not the easiest thing to do so don’t be surprised when they run through your mind still.
I have mixed feelings about when people judge a girl off of what she wears. I think it’s ignorant for people to think that way, but at the same time, if you dress a certain way, people are bound to judge you. Your image usually reflects the type of person you are, if you dress revealing, expect people to call you a slut. If you don’t want to be called a slut, don’t dress like one. Right? It’s sad to see that people will judge you off of the way you look, but it’s completely true.
I always try my best to make someone’s day when they’re feeling down. Even though I’m not very happy myself, I’d still go out of my way just to help someone out. I always consider the people around me as a first priority when it comes to cheering someone up.
What hurts me more than anything is knowing that you’re no longer in my life. No matter how much I try to make myself dislike you, I can’t. No matter how much I try to slowly forget everything, I just simply can’t. Why? Because you’ve influenced me greatly and you played a huge role in my life….
You know what I hate? It’s that very moment when I can feel myself drifting away from someone I really don’t want to lose. It’s one of the scariest things in the world to know that at any given second, they won’t be there anymore. Whether it’s to catch up on small talk, laugh at stupid shit…
There’s this one Aerosmith song that I’ve always adored because of the lyrics.
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing Watch you smile while you are sleeping While you’re far away and dreaming I could spend my life in this sweet surrender I could stay lost in this moment forever Where…
We all talked shit, used someone, say we dislike a certain person yet still act friendly, judge people, spreading business that don’t belong to you and all that other two facin’ shit in our lives. I ain’ tryna lie but I’m fake. I’m not sayin’ I’m proud of it. So stop bitchin’ about how fake people are nowadays and look at yourself. Just sayin’ tho’.